♥petals && peaches♥

Insanity

2012-01-05T11:20:00.000-05:00

Salam

I have a clear map on where to go, but why am I still taking the wrong turn?

Is it possible because I like being stuck and lost in this maze?

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such a drama queen.

Quit it.

And start moving.

Forward.

HOPE

2011-12-17T07:51:00.000-05:00

Salam peeps,

I've done some pretty stupid things this year.

If only I can turn back time and erase away the memories.

Say: O My servants who have transgressed against their own souls, despair not of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful. (Surah az-Zumar 39:53)

There is hope.

There is always hope.

InsyaAllah

In The Car

2011-08-23T02:57:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Situasi dalam kereta:

Along: *tekan tekan radio* Ish nape takde channel yang best nihh. Pening kepala along dengar rap2 nih.

Bella: Haa pasang cd lah along.

Along: Okey. Amek bekas cd kat dalam compartment depan tuh

Bella: *amek bekas cd*

Along: Pasanglah cd taylor swift ke ingrid.

Bella: Tanak. Nak pasang cd nasyid.

Along: .......................

Along: *nak cover malu* along ade cd raihan lah ngn saujana. kalau tanak dengar maher zain.

Bella: Okey. *pasang cd raihan*

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Monologue II

2011-08-16T21:44:00.000-04:00

I can't hold this feeling any longer.

It's killing me.

All I want is to erase it and pretend it never happened.

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Is that too much to ask?

Treasure Hunting

2011-08-05T12:02:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps :)

Imagine that you and I were on a quest to search for a long hidden treasure. We were on an island, some place far far away from home. We followed clues, evaded wild beasts, survived through countless nights and finally it led us to an ancient tablet. This tablet was inscribed with writings of a different language. The only way to get to the treasure is to understand the inscription written on the tablet.

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Some of you might know where I'm heading with this. We all know that the Quran is the most magical book ever. It's linguistic aesthetics cannot be compared to any other book. The Quran is so special that there is no other like it. It contains secrets, stories, history, laws, just about everything. But we can't decipher it if we don't understand it. Arabic is such a beautiful language, but unless you understand the language, we can't discover any hidden information that the Quran has to offer us. What's the point of reading it without understanding it?

So what I'm suggesting is for you take your time in reading the Quran. I know everyone wants to finish reading the whole Quran by the end of Ramadhan, but at least make an effort to reflect upon its meaning.

Make your own effort to discover the hidden treasure

:)

#justareminderfromonemuslimtoanother

sunshine on my window ♥

2011-08-03T01:18:00.000-04:00

Do you have that someone that always accepts you at worst? That someone that constantly reminds you how different you are than everyone else? That someone that never fails to turn your frown upside down? That someone that appreciates all the itsy-bitsy tiny details that you were never aware of?

I have that someone.

And he turns 23 today ♥

To my best friend, my partner-in-crime, my shoulder-to-cry-on, my back-to-lean-on, my adviser, my loyal fan, my stalker :P, my lover, my fiancee, my sunshine;

Happy Birthday you! :D

♥♥♥

*the day we got engaged. probably the only picture that had just the two of us.

good days. good days

All About Me

2011-07-25T09:36:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Yes, everyone knows that Ramadhan is nearer by the second, heck I can feel the warmth already. Eid songs are being blasted through the speakers of Mydin, women finishing up their "puasa ganti", and tailors are already starting to work their magic to get all the "baju rayas" done by the 1st of Syawal. It's going to be one hell of a festive season I tell ya.

But this year, unlike the past 3 years, I am finally gonna embrace my Ramadhan here, at home. This Ramadhan, its all about me. ME. I need this Ramadhan more than anything right now. I've done some pretty awful things over this past year and I want to make it right. And this feeling of guilt couldn't have come at a better time. And I thank god, for hitting me hard in the face with reality.

So let us make the best of it. Make peace with your neighbors, catch up with your friends, cherish your family, and most importantly tighten your bond with God.

Be a better version of your current self.

Because ultimately, it all comes down to you.

Happy Ramadhan peeps :)

Together & Merrier

2011-06-27T10:20:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Have you ever encountered a situation where you are already prepared to pray, and along comes another person, who is also about to pray, and suddenly there's like an awkward moment of whether or not both of you should pray together, but you ended up praying alone instead?

I know it is such a long question, (hehe) but still, have you ever been in that kind of situation?

I know I have, countless really.

And I regret every moment of it.

27 is obviously better than 1, and we only have 5 chances of that every day (the basic ones lah). Honestly, I'm not that much of a patient person, I don't like waiting, and waiting makes me cranky, especially if I just woke up. That is one of the reasons why I rarely pray "berjemaah" for fajr prayer when I was in Penn State. My housemates and I used to pray "jemaah" during maghrib and isha prayer, because that's the only time all of us would be home. I treasure every minute of that, and I miss it badly. If one of us heads to the bathroom to take wudhu', another person will yell "nak solat ke? tunggu aku". It becomes a habit, a routine. It comes to a point where there's a hint of guilt if you're praying alone without asking other people to join you.

I guess its different with the people you're used to pray together with compared to "strangers". There's like a sense of fear to start asking whether or not the other person wants to pray together or not.

I don't know why, but I'm trying to get rid of it.

You have to start somewhere right?

(sorry about the grammar errors, dah lama xmenulis :P)

monologue

2011-06-25T13:44:00.000-04:00

Sometimes I wonder,

what's it like to be in someone else's shoes,

and maybe then,

--

I'd finally be forever grateful for what I already have.

:)

Cancerous

2011-06-22T02:17:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

I know everyone expects me to go back to the States for the fall semester (okay not everyone, tipulah tu). A few weeks ago I was torn between Johns Hopkins or Columbia. But right now, I am torn between doing my masters, or PhD. Big decision. Like really, ginormous. My parents are somehow urging me to go straight to PhD since I am qualified, and eventually I am going to do it anyway sometime in the future. So yeah, right now, I'm like 75% sure that I'm not going back to the States.

So far my progress is okay I guess. I've already found a potential supervisor both in UPM and Sheffield (oh yeah its a joint program). The project seems interesting, it has something to do with cancer, breast cancer to be exact. Its kinda like tumor targeting, I'm going to test the effect of a specific compound on the metastatic activity of the cancer line, bla bla bla.

Okay so now, I know what I'm going to do in a few months, I'm not as lost as I used to be a few weeks ago. Still waiting on the recommendation letters from a few lecturers in Penn State. But yeah...

It's not 100% confirm yet, but insyaallah, I'm heading there.

Toodles :):)

I want life

2011-06-10T09:15:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

The more you give, the more you get back.

I've always wanted to be different than everybody else.I always have these great plans inside my head and promise myself that someday, I'll execute them. But not one, not a single plan, until now, has been brought into actuality.

The thing is, I always forget, or something else more important will pop up out of nowhere that needs my immediate attention. I'm turning 23 in 4 months, and I haven't done something that I am actually proud of.

I don't want to be like everybody else, get married, get a job, have kids, midlife crisis, kids growing up, become a grandma and die. Even a robot can do that.

I want more. I want meaning.

I want life.

random

2011-06-07T12:09:00.000-04:00

Salam ;)

Okay wow its been a month since I updated this blog and many things have happened. I'm not in the mood to tell stories right now. I'm having dilemmas about my future plans. AAAA. The thing is I have too many options. That's the problem. Way too many choices. (sebenanye ade due je haha).

And what is it with people asking me when I'm getting married? Tak terkira dah how many people tanye.

urgh.

I think I want to open my own wedding blog. I love colors!

ok random. jet lag lagi. bye.

grown ups blergh

2011-05-11T05:41:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Well I'm officially done with my undergraduate studies, well sorta, my commencement is on the 14th of May. So yeah, technically I'm done. I'll be meeting my encik tunang at noon. Yippee. Tomorrow we're gonna pick up my ummi and abah kat JFK, new york.

Everyone's been asking me the same question all over again. Bila nak kawen? I don't blame them, its a standard question to ask given that I am already happily engaged. The thing is, I can't give an answer just yet. I still have many things to consider. I've been offered a place at Johns Hopkins University and Columbia University to do my masters (ok bukan nk berlagak, fyi). I need to decide whether to come back for fall or not. Who said real life was easy?

Well anyways, I still haven't decided anything yet. Still need to discuss this with my parents. Haish

I hate being a grown up.

urgh.

Last of the Last

2011-05-01T00:11:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

The last finals week is here. Our last finals week as an undergraduate yeehaa.

so, Good Luck to those yang ade finals,

Bittaufik wan najah y'alls :D

Niqab-ish

2011-04-13T18:20:00.001-04:00

Salam :)

I guess the video of Hebah and Mona debating on the issue of banning the niqab in France went viral. And I must say, Hebah rocked it, she clearly knew what she was saying and was perfectly calm throughout the debate. Mona was talking gibberish and I still don't understand why, she, as a muslim women, wants to ban other muslim women from wearing the niqab just because it creates a spectrum of how a muslim women is being judged upon.

Madness.

I once had a thought of wearing the face veil a few years back. It was a random thought because I was tired of how people, men especially, judge people by the way they look. For instance,

Boy: Hey look at her facebook profile picture. She's cuuuuute *grins widely.

*clicks "Add as friend" button.

Urgh.

Well anyway, all I know is, that the muslim women who chose personally to wear the niqab, or face veil, are very brave and courageous, and I, as a sister who might not have the strength and courage to do the same, respect your choice and will always be on your side.

May peace prevail on earth.

:)

Rants II

2011-04-04T22:04:00.002-04:00

Salam,

Why is everyone getting married??

Ok jealous.

I wanna get married too :(

(hopefully ummi doesn't read this)

Ok bye.

Rants

2011-04-04T21:40:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Fuhh fuhh. It's almost a month away from graduation *pengsan

I have mixed feelings about this and let me tell you why:

On the bright side:
-SCHOOL'S OVER.
-Can go home and eat as much as I can
-Closer to family and friends
-I won't miss any important events
-Hot weather

Not so bright:
-Unknown future. work? grad school? kawen?
-Bigger responsibility
-No more shopping heaven :(
-Him, you know, the tunang, will be halfway across the globe for six months. (eh this should be number 1)

Okay so, I'm going back home on the 31st of May, yeehaa.

Hmm.

*blank. Will update more k?

Kembali

2011-03-14T20:58:00.000-04:00

Apa yang aku mahukan,
hanyalah hati yang kembali sensitif,
hanyalah malu yang kembali beriman,

agar kehormatanku sebagai seorang wanita muslimah,

kembali berbunga.

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#konflik dalaman,

Nadiah.
3/14/2011
8.52 pm

My Hero II

2011-03-12T12:32:00.000-05:00

Salam :)

Alhamdulillah it's Saturday already. Spring break is almost over, and school starts on Monday. Honestly, I think this is the most wisely spent Spring Break I have ever had. Went to Cabin Islamic Spring Retreat in Tennessee, and came back with a new faith in my heart and mind :)

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To the man that I love with all my heart,
I know I haven't expressed how grateful I am to have you, I know I don't have anything to give back for what you have done for me, the only thing I can give you right now, is my prayers. I will always pray for, day and night, so the God will forgive you and grant you a place in Heaven,

Thank you for everything you've done for me, my sisters, and my ummi,

Happy Birthday Abah :):)

I love you ♥♥♥♥

Silly Talk

2011-02-28T22:03:00.000-05:00

Okay, I am so lazy right now. I have a Biochemistry exam this Thursday and I just started studying for it an hour ago. This is the time where I'd wish for a photographic memory, or a twin sister who is 10 times smarter than me. How cool would that be?

Life would definitely be much easier if I had a photographic memory. No more extra hours at the library or late nights studying. No need to ask someone over and over again for their addresses or birthdays. And I'd definitely can skip class more often to go back home and sleep.

Eh but, if I had such memory, I'd remember anything traumatic or depressing. Then I would have a hard time moving on and enjoy life the way I'm supposed to.

Ahh. Rubbish. We were born to forget. That's why we can live the next day without dwelling on bad memories.

Okay quit writing crap and start studying!

:D

Equilibrium

2011-02-28T16:35:00.000-05:00

Salam peeps :)

Everything is created in pairs, left and right, up and down, over and under, front and back, black and white, etc. There's a sense of balance, equality in these pairs don't you think? A sense of equilibrium.

Like for instance, the balance or middle-ground between black and white should be grey. If you add just a slight of black to that shade of grey, it'll alter the equilibrium altogether and the grey is more prone to be black than white.

Same thing goes in life, being in the middle, balanced is well, ideal. Example, nutrition, if the amount of input you put in your body is bigger than your output (i.e physical activities) you are more likely to gain weight and vice versa, if your input is smaller than your output, you tend to be underweight. These both conditions can lead to adverse subsequent results (i.e diseases, lifestyle).

Your goal should be the same too. The world vs hereafter, professional vs personal, fun vs serious etc. If we put countless effort into understanding our biology/engineering/ chemistry textbook for the sake of an A, or to land a bigger pay job, why can't we do the same for the Quran? Or if we spend our money and time to go to a, for instance, Katy Perry concert, why can't we spend the same amount of time and money to go to, well I don't know, an intellectual, religious discussion?

This mentality is what hindering us from achieving the beautiful world you and I dream of.

and oh by the way,
I'm not saying that everything should be equal, some things, rationally, should weigh more than the other, good deeds vs bad deeds, heaven vs hell.

You get my point don't you?

:)
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Itching to write more,
nadiah

Take care, stay warm.

Old Lovers

2011-02-12T21:39:00.001-05:00

*knock knock on petals && peaches*

*open the door*

*door creeks*

*FEELS LIKE HOME*

:)

Glad to be back on track again.

Somehow I can't deny the pleasure of writing.

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:D

Our Own O.C

2010-12-18T23:16:00.000-05:00

Salam :)

Time akhir-akhir sem ni lah, bile dah dapat result, kite start wondering what would happen if this and this occur, will I get a different grade? will this affect my gpa?

Normal.

I know, we tend to look back at the past, imagining that maybe, just maybe, if I circled an A over a B, then I would have lived the dream of my life.

Show's over baby.

Time is up. So what should we do now? I know!

California's expecting us.

and we'll be there in no time

Chill :D

Last Fall

2010-12-08T18:01:00.000-05:00

Salam ;)

It's almost mid-December, and the semester is slipping off to the edge, day by day. Finals are next week, hip hip hooray. NOT. I'll be having four finals ok. FOUR. This is my last Fall semester, and I have four finals. What a nerdy senior. Bluerghh.

Nvm, at least I'm done with three of my subjects. Fuhh. That's a relief.

Well okay,

Good Luck for finals everyone, winter break is peeking through and I can't wait!

Bittaufik wan Najah y'alls

:D

A Girl's Heart Desire

2010-12-05T15:55:00.000-05:00

Sometimes,

I want to open my hijab,

and show the world,

that I too,

am beautiful in the people's definition.

But,

Deep down here,

in my little heart,

I know that beauty is by definition,

a mystery.

and it is forever more rewarding,

to be beautiful in God's eyes.

Sometimes,

I want to wear ruffled dresses and tight jeans,

Show off what I really look like,

under those baggy shirts and loosely fitted pants,

Make a statement,

That I too,

have a figure and worth looking at.

But,

I know better,

to avoid entering the world of men's imagination,

For I love my future husband,

and I am ashamed,

what should be his, has already been unveiled by others.

Sometimes,

I want to show the world,

the other side of me,

the bubblier, bolder, and crazier me.

Put myself on display,

For everyone to see,

To be desired, and admired upon.

But,

I know that eyes are not just eyes,

Seeing is not just seeing,

Image and respect are gained,

Shame and humility deserve a better place,

Because in the end,

it is not just about me,

I carry a lot of impressions and expectations,

of what a Muslim girl should be,

I am covered by the word "Islam" the moment I walk out of my door,

So don't be selfish Nadiah,

Can't you put behind your heart's desire for something worth fighting for?

Love is all it takes.

Love.

Inshaallah

Are We There Yet?

2010-11-11T19:02:00.000-05:00

Salam :)

I remember having this conversation with my Abah a few years back,

me: Abah, I'm going to New York for Thanksgvng, and probably Texas for Winter Break.

Abah: Haiiya, org suh duk US tuh suh blaja, bukan berjalan.

me: **Giving him the "I cant believe you said that" face

me: Do not talk to me about not going jalan jalan. Its in the GENE abah. Your gene particularly. Or else you wouldn't have met Ummi if it wasn't for your Jalan2 GENE. (cewah konon budak bio kan sebut2 psl gene). So don't act like you've never been there, you were a student once upon a time too.

Abah: *HAHAHA*

So abah ummi, I'm going to Canada this thanksgvng, and off to California, Las Vegas and Arizona for the break.

Kalau tetibe suare sedih tepon time early January tu paham paham jelah eh :D

Awesomeness.

Deny All You Want Nadiah

2010-11-01T12:33:00.000-04:00

Salam :D

I had the most awesome Saturday ever. Thought it started out pretty rough, but the ending was super sweet! We went to New Jersey for the Evening of Inspiration by Islamic Relief USA. And yeah, Native Deen and Maher Zain performed. I literally became a 10 year old girl who screams over a barbie doll. Like seriously.

Hehe.

Okay, I did get a little hyped about Maher Zain, but really, he was very inspiring. His songs were amazing, and he even gave us a snippet of a song from his second album, which I am totally buying when it comes out.

and something else happened last weekend.

I turned 22. Bluergh. Twenty Two is a big big number.

Seriously? Do I look like I'm 22?

*reality hits me hard in the head*

Okay okay, so I'm twenty two. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah, for another year. and hopefully this year I'll be a better girl. :)

and thanks for all the wishes on facebook, and special thanks to encik tunang for the wonderful presents :):)

so yeah,

really? 22?

Dush dush.

Will You Marry Me?

2010-10-25T20:42:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

I found this witty and funny piece in someone's blog while I was blog-hopping. Thought I'd share it here with you guys; Enjoy :D

Some pick-up lines for the guys out there who wants to propose to the girl:

1. Marry me so I don't have to lower my gaze

every time you walk into the room.

2. Would you like to help me

wake you up for Subuh prayer?

3. Girl, when I saw you I said masha-Allah,

then I said insha-Allah.

4. Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing

Tawaaf in my mind all day long.

5. How would you like to help me

fulfill half of my deen?

6. You are the reason hijab was mandated.

7. Allah created everything in pairs,

so what are you doing single?

8. I'd like to be more than just

your brother in Islam.

9. Do you believe in the hereafter? Oh you do?

Then you know what I'm here after..

10. Girl you put the fit in fitna.

*credits to the one who made this, you, my friend,

just made my day.

Take care :)

Monster Inc

2010-10-24T19:18:00.000-04:00

Salam,

The Green- Eyed Monster is in us, latent, but trust me, it's there.

The moment you know someone scored higher than you did on a killer exam, or when someone got a really nice compliment from your lecturer for speaking up, or when someone got some sweet presents from their loved ones.

Oh come on, you know what I'm talking about. It's the itsy-bitsy stuff that keeps you nudging for more out of life when things don't go your way. I'm just saying that it's okay to have that green-eyed monster lingering along sometimes, but if you feed him with sweets and candies all the time, just the way he likes it, he's gonna get bigger, and fatter, and eventually, take control of you, and well, your life.

Try feeding him with some greens and fruits, he'll become healthier, and so will you, be envious of something good, something that will turn your life to a better path, put effort into training the monster to do good. Take it in a positive way,and that way, your life won't be as miserable as it should have.

So yeah, pat pat green eyed monster.

Be good now.

Toodles ;)

Daisies and Dahlias

2010-10-17T20:59:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

So this short post is just to inform ya that I will be opening another blog, under the same profile,

daisies && dahlias ♥♥

It's nothing special, just another place to construct more serious writings and issues. This blog is still open, but it'll be more on personal stuff.

Hee :D

So yeah.

Chill.

We'll Be A Dream

2010-10-07T19:59:00.000-04:00

Hellop :)

I'm officially addicted to We The Kings now.

Maybe its a bit late than everyone else, but nvm, their songs are always on repeat whenever I listen to my ipod.

and and

they're coming to Penn State by the end of October,

but but

I prefer watching Maher Zain live at New Jersey :D

I know some people think he is overrated and he is just another oh typical singer, but he brought change I tell you, for my soul, and hopefully yours too.

Don't try to adore him too much, just learn from his songs and the message he is trying to say. Deeeeeeep. Like way deep.

Cheerios.

(The cereal not the cheerleading team in Glee.)

Put On A Smile & Wear A Crown

2010-10-04T20:42:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Disappointment.

Happens all the time. Every single day.

When you ran your heart out to catch up with that R bus but didn't make it, when you're in line wanting a cup of iced caramel latte and the latte machine broke down on that particular morning, when you swamped your brain out studying for that biochemistry test but ended being just above average.

Yep, happens all the time.

The least we could do, well I could do,

is put on a bright smile on that frowned face, and say,

He knows BEST.

So here I am, smiling away all by myself.

and here's a crown for not cursing or saying or intending to say rude and bad words (it just gets on my nerves).

Cheers :D

So Bring On The Rain & Bring On The Thunder

2010-10-03T23:50:00.001-04:00

So, despite having exams every single week up until Thanksgiving, I still managed to go to tonight's Boy Like Girls concert. I'm not sure what it's called so I'm just going to call it a concert. And I thought Keane was going to be the first band I'm gonna see live. Nvm.They're not touring in the US anyway. *sigh.

This is probably the last time I'll ever go to these kinda events. The jumping up and down, loud loud music, bright spotlights, screaming at the top of your lungs - sorry, not my thing. Sure it was fun, singing along the songs you know, but emm, I prefer the Ingrid Michaelson type of stuff. You don't have to move so much. Haha.

So yeah, though I'm not particularly against going to gigs and concerts or whatever, there are still some singers I'd love to see (John Mayer, Taylor swift, Keane etc). I know that I can only get to see them in the US, cause back home, I know my parents won't let me, not in a million years. Plus, US is the land of everything.

Haish.

Next--> Maher Zain y'all :D

Coolness. Super.

Bright and Beautiful

2010-10-02T11:44:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

As Fall starts to unfold its way in slowly, Summer leaves us hanging on for more Sunshine. The cold, the rain, my gloomy Fall is making an entrance. Welcome Fall, welcome.

Bye bye oh my wonderful Summer. See you next year :)

Bright and Beautiful,

Sunflowers ♥

She will be loved pt.II ♥ :)

2010-09-25T23:25:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Okay to the best-est friend in the whole wide world. My best-est friend, Khairunnisa Mohd Hanifiah ♥

This unimaginably mushy post is specially dedicated to the person who knows me better than myself,

she's my christina if I'm meredith, she's my serena if I'm blair, and she's my lily if I'm hannah.

or vice versa :P

anyway, Happy Birthday sayang :)

(p/s: enjoy this while it lasts :P)

semoga kau bahagia dunia dan akhirat, semoga kau bertambah keimanan, semoga kau dapat apa yang diimpikan.

aku sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk kau. Ini saja hadiah yang aku boleh kasii sekarang (tp bleh je nak pos hadiah tp busyy hehe :P) :)

sorry kalau kadang kadang aku tergarang ngan kau, tegur kau, termarah ngan kau tp believe me, aku tetap sayang kau, always.

Terima kasih, kerana menjadi Khairunnisa untuk Nadiah :)

you're my person. I'm your person.

Love ♥,

boo yang tak blur sangat dah skang :D

p/s: pick up the phone lah makcikkkk!

Generous Peace :) :)

2010-09-03T16:19:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps :D

Yes, yes I still exist. Alhamdulillah. Been busy for the past few weeks obviously. Senior year starts, add/drop classes, moving into a new house, Ramadhan. Hmmph.

Fall started out great i guess. Lots of "reading" and "memorizing" class.

and and I'm taking Spanish!

Hola! Me llamo Nadiah Abu. Yo soy estudiente internacional de Malaysia.

Hehe I think it's right. Whatever it's only been a week pun.

Okay. Heading to Tennessee insyaallah this evening after iftar.

Below is a great video by Kareem Salama. Sorta like a country nasheed singer. But Maher Zain is still on top of my list. Hehe. :D

Happy Iftar America :)

when HE speaks, we should listen :)

2010-08-17T12:56:00.000-04:00

Salam ;)

I know this video has been circling around facebook this past few days. Just thought I should do my part by sharing it with you guys.

It would be awesome if we had these kinda ads in Malaysia. Instead of lagu raye or iklan sale kan? Tak sampai 10 hari Ramadhan lagu raye dah berkumandang everywhere.

Selamat Beramal! :D

Read Read Read

2010-08-16T12:57:00.000-04:00

Salam peeeps ;)

Alhamdulillah. It is already day 7 of Ramadhan al-Kareem, time does fly fast when we least want it to kann? Especially if you have to fly thousands of miles away from your loved ones in a few days.

So I went through all of my old books earlier this day, and I found a pile of my old books. I literally grew up with RL Stine. Like seriously. Goosebumps and Fear Street were two of my fave series when I was a kid.

Back then, TV had little impact on me. I was a book-worm. I had like 40+ of the goosebumps series and 30+ of the fear street series. Tak maen lah twilight macam sekarang niii. Though I did read the first book of the twilight series. Heee.

Looking at the cover page of most of his books still gives me the creeps like it did ten years ago.

Then, I moved on to Harry Potter. HAHA. I read the first book in 1998/1999. It wasn't as BIG as it is now. I stopped at the 4th book. Then after SPM, I read until the 6th book. I malas nak baca the final book.

During that particular time, the shopaholic series was also a hit. But I didn't read the book since everyone was reading it. So I moved on to Cecelia Ahern kinda books. Romantic sket2. Teenage girl kan :D

And then I tried to read heavy books like Paulo Coelho or Mitch Albom.

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But now, I'm focusing on reading books that will make me a better person inside out. Especially in this month of blessing, it'll be good for my soul and mind.

No matter how imaginative or creative a book can be, nothing beats the Holy Quran.

And I know I'm no scholar or anything, but try to read it's translation too. I'm trying and so should you.

Let's try to understand it okay?

Ragam Ramadhan

2010-08-13T14:54:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

Malam pertama Ramadhan, masjid MITC penuh. Ruang saf wanita tingkat atas sampai 5-6 saf. Terasa macam sembahyang raya pula. Panas sebab terpaksa duduk hujung. Malam ke-empat, cea cakap dua saf sahaja yang tinggal. Mungkin ramai tak dapat hadir sebab hujan lebat sebelum berbuka tadi.

Seronok :)

Seronok dapat berjemaah di masjid buat pertama kali dalam bulan Ramadhan sepanjang tiga tahun. Seronok dapat melihat lelaki melayu berbaju melayu dan berkain pelikat. Seronok dapat melihat perempuan melayu bertelekung serta berbaju kurung. Semua menuju ke rumahNya. Seronok dapat dengar azan berkumandang dengan jelas.

Tapi, keseronokan semua terpadam tatkala melihat saf-saf di sekeliling berlubang-lubang. Ada saf yang jarak-jarak. Ada saf yang tak serupa saf, kejap tige orang, lepas itu lubang, sambung pula empat orang. Ada saf kanak-kanak bermain di tengah-tengah. Ada saf serong, slanted. Tunggang langgang.

Ada pula makcik yang tak nak rapatkan saf, suruh orang belakang ke depan. Padahal takbir imam dah angkat. Ada pula yang di hujung mahu semua saf rapat ke arahnya, dia enggan rapat ke tengah. Pening kepala melihat.

Masa terawih rakaat ke-tiga, saya minta makcik sebelah saya rapat sikit, sebab jauh. Dia tak nak. Saya buat tak dengar.

"Makcik rapat sikit" kata saya perlahan sambil mencuit bahu dia.

Baru dia rapatkan saf.

Alhamdulillah. Hehe.

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Kenapa jadi begini?

Why?

WHY?

Against All Odds

2010-08-13T04:26:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

In less than a week I'll be heading back to the States. Rasanya sudah tiba masa untuk kembali mengaktifkan sel-sel otak. Nanti sel sel otak rosak kalau dibiarkan berehat lama sangat. Hehe.

Though the goodbye part is always the hardest, I know I'll be heading towards something better rather than just staying at home doing nothing. Yes, I miss studying, books, classes, the rush you feel when taking an exam, the tense of choosing the correct answer. Three months of break is more than enough. And I hope, when I step into my first class of Fall 2010, I will be the new me.

The new me that has a new motivation, new determination, and that will never give up. It's not too late to aim for something BIG.

Wah. Bersemangat pulak bercakap kat siniii.

Ngee, It's time for me to fly, time for me to soar.

InsyaAllah

Selamat Berpuasa Semua!

:D

We Meet Again, O' Ramadhan :)

2010-08-09T23:53:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps :)

Trying to back out from all the hype and get prepared for Ramadhan :)

Alhamdulillah, we are able to meet Ramadhan again this year.

May this Ramadhan will be the best Ramadhan ever, insyaallah.

Ramadhan kareem everyone :):)

You and I; We're More Than Just Friends :)

2010-08-08T04:25:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

So, to put the rumors that has been going on to rest, here are some pictures to explain what happened yesterday;

:)

Some of the hantarans from my side;

Some of the hantarans from his side;

hehe. sorry for the lousy pics. the real pictures are with someone else.

Some random pictures;

khay. the bff that still came even ade skola ganti.

beradiks except iman with my mum's best friend. the alas putih behind with the red and white cushions is where I sat during the ceremony.

abah and some of the rombongan bercakap2.

sempat bawak khay, julia and pp to jonker walk.haha

time makan makan. rebung sedapp.

kak linda, ummi and wan :)

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Okay. Alhamdulillah everything went well. Now it's up to me and him to go through this phase patiently and wisely.

Doakan ye?

A Note for Mr.Sunshine ♥

2010-08-03T13:26:00.001-04:00

p/s: this post is gonna be a bit cheesy and corny. Even for me :P

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To this one person,
Who makes my small heart beats a little bit faster,
Makes my tembam face a little bit warmer,
Makes my big round eyes a little bit brighter,
and makes time,
yes, time,
a little bit slower,

Happy Birthday ♥

May you be blessed with wisdom, faith and patience :)

This song is for you ok? Ok :)

One Step at A Time

2010-08-01T08:27:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps,

I can't move forward in the path I know is right,

maybe it's because my basic knowledge and understanding aren't good enough,

or maybe,

I just don't want to.

Who the hell knows?

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p/s: my second article in iluvislam has been published!

baby steps to finally writing a book.

wuhuuu :)

How to Fix A Broken Heart ♥

2010-07-29T07:51:00.002-04:00

Salam,

Once in a while, I get this feeling. It's hard to describe how it feels, but it's a feeling that I wish I will never have to encounter again. It's a mix of uneasiness and fear. This feeling usually hits me when I feel lonely and helpless. The only way to get rid of this feeling is by remembering Him, a couple of pages from the Book will instantly make this feeling fade away. Puff! Vanished.

It is true what people say,

Al-quran itu penawar hati ♥.

:)

Like Oil and Water;

2010-07-20T08:51:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

So yesterday during dinner, Abah and Ummi were talking to each other about work, friends and family. I was eating my rice with masak asam quietly and then Abah brought up and issue;

Abah: Anak Prof. xxx amek medik kat UM, die first year dengan second year ok. Tetibe third year die kene repeat pulak

Ummi: Eh, kenape?

Abah: Sebab makwe.

Ummi: Ya Allah, ape kene budak tuu.

Abah: Makwe die lambat setahun dari die so die purposely fail third year so die bleh repeat skali ngn makwe die tuu.

Ummi: Hmm. Kawen kan jelah dorang tu.

Of course I was eavesdropping since the conversation was held right in front of my eyes. Abah turned and looked at me.

Abah: So that is the moral of the story. Belajar betul2 jangan sibuk ngn org laen je.

Me: Abah, it's too late, you should have told me this three years ago. I'm going to be a senior next year anyway.

Abah: Separation. Personal ngn tak personal.

Me: I separate VERY well abah.

Abah: Haa jangan sombong.

Me: *grinning*

HEHE.

So you peeps get what I'm trying to say.

Right?

The Inevitable Road

2010-07-20T03:40:00.000-04:00

Salam ;)

With people around me getting married one by one,
I feel rusty and old.
Like seriously, old. Ancient.
Being almost 22 feels like I missed the BIG train.
The train of excitement, passion and of course, youth.
I feel like it's too late to embark on a new dream, or an old hobby.
Too late to start a club for Oxfam or write a book.
Too late to discover something new and exciting.

Sheeeesh.

Truth is, we're heading towards a road filled with "danger" signs on the way, "No U-turns" "One Way Only" stuff like that.
A road to adulthood.
More responsibilities, more mistakes.

Great.

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p/s: Happy 22nd Birthday to my housemate Hamizah Ruwaida!

:D

Warm Butter Sliding Down Hot Toast

2010-07-15T03:22:00.000-04:00

Salam :)

I like to shop. I love to shop ♥.

Who doesn't?

Though sometimes I might buy something unnecessary,

In the end it makes me happy :D

Well of course this will change once I have to earn money myself.

Bummer.

Can't we stay young forever?

Unveiling

2010-07-14T09:21:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps,

when people say,

"ukuwwah fillah"

What does it mean?

I've been trying to figure this out for half of my life already.

"I love you, because of god"

What does it mean?

What does it MEAN?

I don't get it.

God.

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I am confused.

I know there's a deeper meaning than what comes into mind.

A better meaning.

(-_-)

Devil's Workshop

2010-07-13T10:35:00.000-04:00

Salam,

I daydream constantly through out this summer. I sleep longer than I should (duhh. Holidays?). I eat when I feel like eating, which is all the time. I spend time with the television as if it is my partner for life. I reduce my reading of the Book to half of what I normally would read. I don't do my own laundry (this is my fave). All of this conclude to;; Productivity below zero.

Idleness warps the mind,

and the soul too.

Dushhhh.

According to Cinderella;

2010-07-12T09:30:00.000-04:00

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling thru

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

the dream that you wish will come true

Blackened By The Second

2010-07-11T07:36:00.000-04:00

Salam everyone,

Cold.
It can refer to the freezing, below 0 C weather on a Monday morning.
It can be the common mild viral infection that makes one constantly sneezing.
It can be someone's attitude towards their loved ones after a broken heart,

But the cold I'm referring to, is the cold of the heart.
The darkest and most gruesome of them all,
For a heart without the slightest warmth of joy, repentance and humility,
..........
Is barely a heart at all.

Your Royal Highness, the Drama Queen.

2010-07-10T11:03:00.001-04:00

Salam :)

Every girl is a drama queen,
Sometimes they exaggerate about their weight,
to make themselves feel better,
Sometimes they get mad for no reason,
just because they want to,
Sometimes they use the excuse pms too often,
just to get out of the trouble they caused,
Sometimes they say they are "fine" or "ok" in a single text msg,
just to show that they are not,
Sometimes they like to purposely create problems,
just to get the attention they want.

But in the end,
No matter how much dramas they've created,
A girl is still a girl,

Who will eventually fall for flowers, chocolates and compliments.

:)

The Black-eyed Monster. Rawrrr!

2010-07-09T04:17:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps,

Ingrate.

When you're behind a four-wheeled Kelisa, you look up to the big Camry on your left. It's bigger, it's better. You sighed and wished for a better car. Then you look to your right, a kid who just got back from school, and her weary-looking father I suppose, riding a two-wheeled, almost broken, motorcycle. Ingrate.

When you're wearing that Coach handbag that you just bought last thanksgiving, you feel like you're making a statement to people by labels. A person walking pass you showing off her latest design, Chanel handbag caught your attention. Irritated, you started to think the worst out of people. Another person, with two small kids, pulls out her worn out purse out of her label-less, cheap-looking handbag, you start judging them as if you've known them your entire life. Ingrate.

There's a devil inside ourselves, you and me.

Don't nurture it, but don't ignore it.

Control it, cause if you don't the monster inside of you will.

Be grateful. For whatever you have. Alhamdulillah :)

Demi Masa

2010-06-27T13:42:00.000-04:00

salam peeps :)

Where did the time go? It's halfway Summer already. Sheesh. Time flies fast when we don't want it to. As of now, it's July already man (in a couple of days), it feels like yesterday I stepped on a plane that will bring me back home. It feels like just a moment ago, I stuffed away all US-related things. And, how come time seems to be crawling slowly when we least want it to? Like the last 5 minutes of that virology class, or the final 10 minutes before breaking a Thursday fast.

Time is a funny thing you know.
It is very subtle in its movement, and also in the gradual changes it may cause.

The next thing you know, you are battling with the so-called midlife crisis.

Imagine that.

Of Madagascar, Shrek and the Mummy.

2010-06-19T10:31:00.000-04:00

salam peeps :)

Alhamdulillah, just got back from Singapore around 6.30 pm today. Went to Universal Studios Singapore and my, the place was flooded with tourists from Indonesia, Malaysia and even the local Singaporeans.

Hee hee. Some of the attractions were similar with the ones in Universal Orlando. Nvm. Experiencing the same thing with friends and family are very different.

ain boolat

Abah filling up the immigration forms

Iman and Bella excited!

These are the amongst the few pictures taken. My camera went on shaking non-stop. Boo hoo.

Goshhhh.

Study Nadiah!

singapura dilanda ABUs

2010-06-16T08:26:00.000-04:00

salam :)

Off to Singapore tomorrow! Until Saturday then on Sunday, Iman has to go back to asrama, and then on Tuesday, Bells off to KMB. I have no idea where on earth is Banting. Like really.

And then there will be two,

me and ain boolat.

The "bulat-est" girl ever.

toodles :D

fabulously flowery

2010-06-13T12:13:00.000-04:00

salam :)

Again, I changed my layout, the design, colors, everything. This is what too much free time can do to you. Lately, I tend to be very indecisive, about almost everything, blogs, shoes, food. And I don't know why.

Oh well, let us enjoy the flowers that Summer has brought us shall we?

Hello Lovely Lilac, and you Dazzling Daffodil.

sudden thoughts

2010-06-10T12:01:00.000-04:00

maybe that was a lesson, a lesson that had been given to me several times already,

don't take things for granted.

nerdy nadiah

2010-06-09T12:43:00.000-04:00

Salam,

I don't want to study words and numbers anymore.

God, give me strength, and sanity to get through this.

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for a better education,
and a dream to come true.

head held high no more

2010-06-08T01:53:00.000-04:00

Salam,

After digging deeply through my almost 22 year old brain, I have found nothing, none, nil information that I really had a grasp on regarding Palestine. True, I know a bit about this and that. Just pieces of information that would form a rather incomplete, deformed puzzle. Heck, I can't even see a quarter of the picture.

I am ashamed.

So, what do you know?

encoding and decoding

2010-06-06T22:39:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps :)

My conversation partner once asked,

"How is your language like? Do you have different characters and alphabets? Syllables?"

"Err. We don't have different characters or alphabets.We just use the regular ABCs"

"Really. How are your words like?"

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And then I froze. I spoke whatever that is on my hungry, unfed-its already past noon mind.

"Bahasa Melayu is more or likely like English. We use some of the English words and make it into our own, like Economics--Ekonomi, or Physics--Fizik or Mathematics--Matematik"

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Way to go Nadiah. Way to portray your national language's image like a second-rated or rather third-rated "english words stealing" language. Woo-hoo. Trust me, that wasn't something I am proud of, or ever will be. At that moment all I can imagine is this marching band in my head with the banner "Traitor of the Bahasa Ibunda" Ugh. Scary.

But the thing is, I was telling the truth. A bloody blunt ugly truth. I know, since ever, that some of the words we use are originally from english. Like those ancient words we learn from school. But lately, it's getting out of control, it seems like almost all of the new Malay words are, I dare say, English. Don't you think?

Most of them are scientific words. Which is perfectly understandable because I think other languages also take the scientific english words and transform them into their own language. Such as carbon dioxide, or oxygen, or photosynthesis.

But other words than that--> so unoriginal.

And this is coming from someone who doesn't know the difference between baharu and baru.

I'd rather just buy The Star than read Berita Harian or Utusan.

It'll lessen the eyesore,
and the grumpy words that may come into mind.

Peace.

and then my bulb went off

2010-06-05T23:00:00.000-04:00

Think Nadiah, think.

have you no mercy?

2010-05-31T23:47:00.000-04:00

salam.

I know that people around the world are buzzing about the gaza attack by the israelis. Like come on, have you no mercy? We know, everyone knows that you people are among the smartest people in the world, but this? Attacking humanitarians? This is low. Like really low.

To all the people who care, please make dua for the brave people out there, braver than you and me.

It's the least we could do,
It's the least I could do.

(-_-)

bla bla bloom

2010-05-26T20:11:00.000-04:00

Salam peeps :)
I know I know its been ages since I last wrote an entry. Truth is, I don't know what to write about. Home has been super awesome. Food? Superb. Just waiting for this weekend so I can head down to KL to meet up with some friends.

I haven't been studying anything for my GRE though its like almost a month away. Geez. Books again. Words make me dizzy. Like seriously.

And oh, time difference makes me cranky.

Ahhhhhhhh. *cranky*

Toodles :)

summer-o-jelly

2010-05-17T08:23:00.003-04:00

salam :)

I know I haven't been much of a writer/updater lately. not in the mood of writing anyway.

so updates:

1. already in Malaysia, arrived last Saturday. wuhuu :D

2. still a bit woozy of restraining my sleeping hours.

3. my checking account is empty. haha.

4. and oh, spring is so not my semester. (referring to my gpa) I want Fall, I miss Fall.

5. I want to watch iron man 2!

still have to adjust with the time difference. but don't worry, we'll be okay :)

Happy Summer Everyone!

melt me away ♥

2010-05-04T22:08:00.004-04:00

salam everyone :)

It feels good to finally let go of everything that's been a constant bugger on your mind. Bye bye Spring 2010. Dear Fall 2010 don't bother waiting for me, I'll find you when it's time, please make way for Summer honey.

*hugs* Summer.

Oh my, you're warmer than I remember.

I like that.

Oh Summer. My Summer.

melt me away ♥

a little star to light up your midnight

2010-04-29T20:50:00.003-04:00

salam :)

I know many of you have heard this zillions of time;

but I wanna say it anyway,

sometimes not everything that we want,

no matter how bad we want it,

is good for us,

is meant for us,

so look at it this way,

He knows best.

So just take a deep breath, try your best, and put your trust in Him.

and everything will be just fine.

Insyaallah

Good Luck for Finals everyone, and to your lab reports, notebooks, presentations too.

We're gonna be seniors next semester!

Can you believe it?

world, can i be excused for a while?

2010-04-24T14:26:00.002-04:00

salam peeps.

Sometimes we need that time alone, the time when you and your inner self get together and have a little chat over a cup of coffee,

Or a time when you and your inner self evaluate all the things that's been going through after that last prayer of the day,

Or a time when you and your inner self plan how things are going to be in the future when you are finally tucked in bed and waiting to doze off,

Or a time when you and your inner self reminisce all the funny things that made your day-or life over that short walking distance from the library to home,

Sometimes being alone can really bring the best out of you,

it really can.

gone with the wind

2010-04-23T22:01:00.004-04:00

salam :)

i know i know. ppl are wondering (if there are any) why I changed the title of my blog. To be honest, I needed a change, a new turn. Cliche as it my seem, its the truth.

So yeah, next week will be the busiest week of the semester. Exams, lab reports, presentations etc. Wow. This semester went by so fast aite? I am getting older. boo-hoo.

Good luck to everyone. May the last two weeks won't eat us alive.

Literally.

ratu hatiku♥

2010-04-19T10:08:00.002-04:00

salam :)

today is yet another wonderful day,

and according to my memory,

this is the day when the queen of my heart was born,

Happy Birthday Ummi!

:):)

May you and abah live happily ever after :D

Sayang Ummi!♥♥♥

p/s:

sorry terlambat wishhh. I called home and bibik answered the phone, I guess she dint tell you that I called twice!

haish biibik inii.

sickness; home.

2010-04-17T01:45:00.002-04:00

salam,

one more month. just one more month till I get to see the faces that lighten up my life.

abah,

I miss your sense of humor,

ummi,

I miss shopping with you,

cea,

I miss your crankiness,

bells,

I miss your dressing up,

iman,

I miss your wackiness,

ain, my little ain,

I miss picking you up from school.

I miss home. BADLY.

haish syndrome akhir sem dah bermula.

PMS. full-stop.

2010-04-16T09:14:00.003-04:00

salam :)

stereotyping.

I dont even know where to start. It is common, bias, and so ordinary. Is that the word? I dont know. Whatever. Malays especially, stereotyping has become a must. For instance, consider this situation,

A: Kau pegi mane winter break?

B: Tak tau lagii

A: Kau mesti g muktamar kan, tak yah tanye dah.

B: "say what?"

When people go to muktamars, usrahs, halaqahs and stuff, people straight away consider them as "alim", "budak baek". What is "alim" anyway? How do you define "budak baek"? Oh I know, those who go to religious events, wear proper hijab, big tshirts and closed toe-shoes. Without even judging them by heart. And, to make it worse, people have this negative perception on this type of category. And I have no idea why. Its like people restrict their mind-setting that these people can do this, and only this. Is it wrong to just go learn a thing or two from the religious events without being judged?

and is it wrong to move your heavy butt and try to go learn a thing or two from the religious events? It is about the hereafter we're talking about. Its determined. Its eternal. A reminder for myself too.

and another reminder, prayers. I know I'm not perfect myself, but please, don't take it lightly. Set your alarm for subuh prayers, be prepared to pray in crazy spots during the day, and don't easily make excuses to miss them. There is always a way. Always.

so yeah.

blossom bubbles and buttercup

2010-04-09T10:38:00.003-04:00

salam :)

this week has been very interesting.

starting with a good start over the weekends,

then ingrid michaelson,

then baba alii,

and then washington dc, today.

for cherry blossom :D

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Sugar, spice, and everything nice

These were the ingredients chosen

To create the perfect little girls

But Professor Utonium accidentally added an extra ingredient

to the concotion -- Chemical X

Thus, The Powerpuff Girls were born

Using their ultra-super powers

Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup

Have dedicated their lives to fighting crime

And the forces of evil

*i'm missing my sisters. and watching powerpuff girls is one of the ways for me to express it. ahhh. nak balek!

define:overwhelming joy;)

2010-04-06T16:09:00.002-04:00

salam :)

do you know that feeling?

where there are no limits,

to what we see and hear,

i had that feeling yesterday,

ingrid michaelson I ♥ you!

oh and that someone too,

thank you for comingg all the way from the midwest :)

happy wednesday

2010-03-31T06:17:00.003-04:00

salam :)

I am not supposed to write any lovey dovey stuff here because apparently my younger sisters and my parents DO read my writings.

Family rule #1 kot.

..so i cant be that transparent :P

starting from this week, the exam marathon is on. I have exams every week until finals.

I'm sure everyone does too. Thumbs up for academia. Charming ey?

and I'm still having insomniac nights. *sigh.

anyway did anyone here about the bombings in Moscow?

and it seems like the world is going topsy turvy. and people are just finding a way to blame it on someone. anyone.

way to go Russia.

and yeah,

people are scared of what they don't know and understand.

...............

Good morning America. and Happy Wednesday :):)

toodledoo :D

girl talk

2010-03-28T16:18:00.002-04:00

salam :)

finally, I am studying :D

last night and the night before,

me and my housemates had a heart to heart open discussion.

oh including basye and elin on friday night.

haha.

we talked about many things; Malaysian Night, Penn State, mothers, families, ex boyfriends, the future, and some girls stuff.

it was fun, though we wasted like what? 4 hours?

but it was worth it.

hmm.

........................

khay, pick up the phone for goodness sake.

sheeeesh.

my rotten tomatoes

2010-03-27T17:23:00.005-04:00

salam :)

yeays its the weekend :D

I've watched three Malay movies this week. Talking about sayang bahasa ibunda.

hee.

1. Santau (5/10)

Dodol forced me to watch this after postponing it for over a week. It was scary, but then again I like to scream, so no surprise there. The acting was okay, the story line was not bad too, could be better.

2. Dalil Cinta (3.5/10)

Recommended by Elin for those who think are ready to start a new phase in their lives, marriage. Haha. Seriously, sharifah amani in this story is so unbelievable. I know i dont do my own chores back at home, bibik ade, but still, i do take care of my own room and stuff, im not as a slob as she is. sheesh.

3. Muallaf (6/10)

*sigh. no comment on this one, i somehow, find it disturbing. A bit disturbing especially the fact that they have oh-so many knowledge of their own religion, but still... hmm. comparative religion is an interesting subject though, i wanted to take a class of that subject too, but i dont think im mentally prepared yet. maybe some time later.

well anyways,

happy weekend everyone :)

toodles.

knowing is just not enough

2010-03-25T17:34:00.002-04:00

salam :)

I know sometimes I talk and think bad about people,

repelled,

as if I am the most perfect human being,

I know sometimes I tend to brag,

unknowingly of course,

about my academics, personal life, family,

I know sometimes I tend to jump to conclusions,

hastily I know,

especially when it comes to Him,

I know,

I know I'm trying to change,

in progress.

but as far as my mind can reach,

....

I am human. I am imperfect.

and so are you.

look beyond

2010-03-25T06:08:00.003-04:00

salam and good morningg :)

having to sleep early yesterday, I woke up at 5 am today.

I am so proud of myself. teehee :D

its been ages since the last time I woke up and waited for subuh.

my habit became something unusual,

I need to start all over again.

well anyways,

I know many people are disappointed in their genetics exam,

and it made me realize,

you guys are tougher than I am,

and more grateful too,

so yeah,

there's more to it than what we see.

happy thursday everyone :)

my desires, my doubts.

2010-03-24T21:25:00.002-04:00

i am content with what i have, the people around me, the position i am right now, everything.

alhamdulillah

feminist in making; a conservative

2010-03-20T15:41:00.004-04:00

salam :)

women are not prizes to be displayed,

they are not objects to be seen,

they are not competitions to be win,

they are not unintelligent to be looked down,

they are not toys to be played with,

they are not garbage to be thrown away,

But instead,

women are flowers to be appreciated,

they are humans to be considered,

they are gold to be valued,

they are fragile as glass to be handled carefully,

they are your backbone to give support,

and they are among the smartest people in this world,

and I thought living in the 21st century would change the fact that women were once leveled as animals. useless, and brought disgrace.

history does repeats itself again,

but in a different and ironic way,

come on girls,

have pride, have dignity.

break hangovers

2010-03-14T14:39:00.001-04:00

salam :)

spring break is over.

bummer.

cepatlah summer!

pffft.

an education

2010-03-12T22:42:00.004-05:00

salam everyone :)

my sister just got her SPM results the other day.

congratulations Bella ;)

Hmm, it reminded me of how I felt five years ago. Back then SPM was everything, everyone had this mind-setting that if you succeed in SPM, you will succeed in, well, life. That's the funny part that I don't get. Some people, who did well in SPM, turned out to be not so successful afterwards and vice versa. But who am I to judge success eh?

We were mind-fed that these pieces of papers had some magical powers to determine our future. Yes, I do admit that SPM does provide us a ticket to go further. That's why I am on the other side of the world right now. Thanks to my SPM. But, I guess what I'm trying to say here is, there's more to SPM. Our system of education is too exam-oriented. You'll do better if you memorize more. At least, that's how I see it. But I may be wrong, being in one of the top schools in the country had this different kind of pressure and perception. Everyone was smart, everyone knew everything, everyone was studying even during breaks between classes. Crazy.

I remember having this interview with one of my professors here, he chose to interview me because I boldly stated that I was too exam-oriented in my sorta "resume". He said that, many Asians are exam-oriented, and its hard to admit it as being a disadvantage. And then he smiled and asked, what if I asked you to stay back in my lab every single day that you had to miss class and assignments, would you mind getting a B in your perfect A's record?

Well of course I said I don't mind, but really, getting just an A- would really tear my heart let alone a B? Haha. That was a laugh. Guess I really am exam-oriented, but thats what I'm trying to change now, I have a whole new chance here. I want to learn to understand, not to get an A. And of course by understanding, the A comes along too. Hopefully.

Here's to a whole new definition of education and understanding.

toodles peeps :)

wake up wake up

2010-03-10T02:03:00.002-05:00

salam :)

I don't eat healthy stuff as much as I should.

I can finish up a bag of chocolates in a day.

I can finish up a tub of ice cream over a movie (half-pint punye ok, yumm yumm chunky monkey).

I can drink those sweet carbonated drinks in a jiffy.

I can consume caffeine twice a day or even more (exams exams, though caffeine might not affect me anymore, but yeah).

I don't exercise.

I think the only time I exercise is when I WALK to class.

I have french fries for lunch almost daily.

I complain about gaining weight. HAHA.

oh yes I do.

wake up nadiah.

wake up.

newie

2010-03-10T01:27:00.001-05:00

salam again :)

well, apparently someone has been complaining about the previous layout.

ehem ehem :P

soo, i've finally had the time to change it and TADAA!

sorry lah nisak if its the same one you had before.

malas nak carii lagi, this one came up first.

hehe.

comel kan?

spring break preview

2010-03-10T00:53:00.003-05:00

salam everyone :)

its already the middle of spring break, and I haven't done anything except wasting my time and MONEY.

went to the mall today with nadia mizah and asya.

kononnye nak window shopping sahaja.

but I came back home with a pair of shoes, a sweater, a pair of pants, and three tops.

wuhuu.

so much for saving up in case jpa's scholarship will come in late.

whatever.

perlu study genetics. sekarang.

&& i'm going back on the 14th. yeayyy.

so cant wait :D

my hero ♥♥

2010-03-08T18:32:00.004-05:00

salam :)

this post goes to the one man that my heart will always love,

my abah.

Happy 50th Birthday Abah :)

thank you for everything, the food money clothes vacations, everything.

may your wisdom and faith increase, as your age does.

my daddy, my hero :)

♥♥♥

filthy

2010-02-27T17:15:00.003-05:00

my heart,

my precious heart,

rusted with layers and layers of blackness,

darkness,

i've benumbed,

by my own marred heart,

i shall,

peel and grate,

skinning the layers, the onion,

right down to the core,

but Lord,

oh Lord,

will i ever see the light again?

-the filthy heart.

my filthy heart.

you and i

2010-02-22T21:12:00.001-05:00

ingrid's song is back dancing in this journey.

yeay.

she's coming to penn state.

and i am gonna see her on april 5th.

sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit :)

2010-02-20T17:09:00.003-05:00

salaam :)

its always the little things that matter,

and if you do it continuously,

it becomes a habit,

it goes for both good and bad things.

if you take your prayers lightly,

even though you never miss it,

you dont feel obliged to perform it seriously,

and when it happens five times a day everyday,

eventually,

you feel comfortable abandoning it,

for whatever reasons.

same goes if you read a page of the quran after subuh prayer,

you do it every morning,

its the first thing you see when you open your eyes,

it becomes habitual,

and its a good thing.

fastaqim kama umirta.

weekends

2010-02-19T19:51:00.003-05:00

salamm :)

yeay its the weekend!

wah so in need for a break though i still have exams next week.

tape tape.

spring break is in a few weeks.

havent decided on how to spend it yet.

either go to the cabin thing, or the al-bayyinah program, or better, nothing at all.

i like the latter.

cause every break i'll be outta state college, wanna feel how its like to just sit at home doing absolutely nothing.

but then again,

i'll prolly die of boredom in just a day.

no no no. i HAVE to go somewhere.

we'll decide that later ey.

happy weekend everyone.

and jom THON.

order up!

2010-02-16T17:49:00.003-05:00

salam :)

one more exam coming up!

macam boleh order plak exam nii.

can i have exam 459, less questions, more time please?

can i have exam 322, straight-forward questions please?

can i have exam 415, on the day scheduled please?

can i ? can i?

wahh.

hi imaginary friend :)

♥ i like you.

2010-02-14T13:55:00.004-05:00

salam :)

i know i can be cold-hearted sometimes,

i know i can be immature most of the time,

but what i know the most is,

i like myself for who i am,

and if you cant accept me at my worst

you clearly don't deserve me at my best.

-----------

but you've managed to look pass through all the dramas and immaturity,

as of now,

and for that,

i thank you.

sorry for all the fights that couldn't put both you and me to sleep at night.

hee hee.

:) ♥♥

quote;;

2010-02-09T16:27:00.003-05:00

salam.

i watched the movie the great debaters a couple of times now.

and the only quote that gets me is:

We do what we have to do in order to do what we want to do

so here i am (supposedly) studying virology. because i have to.

so i can get good grades and go to grad school. because i want to.

and be a researcher (i want this too)

and make my parents proud (ultimate)

and make my religion proud (utmost).

its a simple equation.

but it aint that easy to do.

hmm.

today in history of virology

2010-02-08T12:02:00.000-05:00

Location: chambers
time: 11.15 am
subject: virology

me: already prepared three pencils and an eraser on my desk.

*the lecturer comes in*

lect: i received a few emails saying that slides were a blur. i was pretty busy over the weeked doing some stuff and ive only gotten the chance to post the slides this morning.
so do u wanna extra day to study?

class: speechless

lect: i dont mind we can have the exam on wednesday.

class: still speechless

chinese guy: yeah fine with me.

lect: okay so go home and study exam is on wednesday.

bashe: boo ko tampar sket ak. punyelah tak tdo ak malam td study. patuh pg td skip bmb 221.

me: * tampar2 bashe*

dil: lahh baek ak masak td ke g class 221 ke. baek xyah bgn pun td.

a blur indian guy entered the class late.

dil: exams cancelled.

me: its on wednesday

indian guy:* muke blur macam tak pecaye*

me: tape tape ade hikmah die extend agy. nk suh study agy tuu.* as we walked outta chambers*

the end.
-nadya boo

gaint microbes

2010-02-07T14:19:00.003-05:00

salam :)

my housemates introduced this cool website.

you can buy plush toys microbes!

they are hugee than the real ones of course.

i especially like t4 bacteriophage and e.coli.

*hint hint*

sundays

2010-02-07T09:23:00.003-05:00

salam :)

currently dekat chambers.

supposedly ade usrah dengan kak nina but was cancelled.

and nobody told us.

and we didnt even bother to check our emails pun.

haha.

thats life ey?

you get left out, you get back up.

anyways,

i dont mind, at least im outta bed.

the biggest challenge kot.

hehe.

so, happy sunday and happy belajar!

especially to those yang amek both virology and genetics.

yeayyy.

ball of happiness

2010-02-06T15:15:00.003-05:00

this is my ball of happiness.

but its missing one thing,

faith.

virus

2010-02-06T01:03:00.001-05:00

salam:)

manusia,

bagai tidak keruan,

tika fenomena h1n1 menawan dunia,

virus influenza,

bijak mengubah "strain" untuk menyesuaikan diri,

untuk membiak dan melengkapkan kitar hidup,

manusia sering lupa,

virus juga makhluk tuhan,

yang diciptakan untuk bergantung kepada organisma lain,

dan,

untuk berevolusi.

-exam virology this monday is making me nuts. dont mind the crappy post and the bad malay.hehe